It has been over a week since I have written in my blog. I have lost my “oomph” sort to speak.
I get like that sometimes, I don’t know if you do? I have a week where I say. “YEAH! this is my week, I am waking up and getting IT done! I am going to ….” this is the “week of ME” kind of deal. It works out great. It really does. Then I kind of find myself falling flat on my face for an entire week. I have burnt out all cylinders.
I had elaborate plans for getting Loveliness ready for kindergarten. It was awesome. I found some websites to print exercises from. We matched objects to their shadows, and we made a lap book. It was a lot of fun. Then came the “mood buster”. The “I don’t LOVE you” mood buster. That’s just great! thanks I needed to hear that. Every aspect of my day is devoted to my children and I live, live, live for them and their well being and education. I really did not need to hear that. I really didn’t need to hear it repeated several times that afternoon and evening either. “I don’t LOVE you, I love Daddy. I hate you, your garbage, your blaaachh”
I know, I know, I KNOW she is 3. It still hurts.
now combine this mood buster, with some very powerful hormones, and a touch of exhaustion, sprinkle some depression and loneliness, (the loneliness is a key ingredient!) and you have one very explosive situation waiting to happen.
and it did.
for 3 days.
on the couch, a tired, crying sack of sad.
I am starting to feel a bit better, after getting a touching text message from my husband the other day. It almost brought me to tears. It helped me get over some of this funk. I have started doing old projects again like the fabric book I started for the girls over a year ago. I pulled out the sewing machine and started sewing a few pages. It is great practice for the quilt I plan on making. Once I have a few more pages I will post it on the site.
for now, I will just make sure I take my vitamins (oh oh… forgot) and take things a little slower. Also listening to my beautiful husband sing “chin up, cheer up” by Ryan Adams makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside (I love you dear) ♥